i'm going fucking crazy -.- the wait is driving me up the fucking wall.

arghhhhh

i'm not sure whether we think of this. the world we live in now, the same paths, same sights - our parents might have walked along too 20, 30 years ago. the views might be different, the people definitely so. but yet, somethings are always the same. the colours of the leaves, the feelings we feel, the hopes we have for the future.

our parents were young once too. it's hard to think of them as such. but they were once 25, full of hope for the future, young and bright-eyed. like we are now. and naturally, along the way, mistakes were made, stumbles and falls, achievements and successes. and that's hardened them and made them the way they are now.

25, 30 years from now. if we do have kids, they might walk down the same physical, the same life path. and they probably will not realise that we took the same paths all these years apart. all the same feelings included.

the people will go. but the memories, the places and the feelings will stay. i'd rather live each day to the fullest, being the happiest i can be, chasing my dreams, and being with the people i love. because tomorrow might never come. and i might never have a future who would reminisce like the way i am now. all the money in the world, can't bring me happiness and the memories i will cherish. memories like flying kites at marina south, the pat on the back at graduation, the round canteen table in rgs, the long hours in the dance club, the sweat and tears in the gym, the walks home in the cold, cooking together over a cramped stove, walking hand in hand in the cold, running home together in the rain and just quiet nights together.